Monthly Archives: February 2009

Hello?… anyone? ….anyone?… Bueller?

Finding subjects for this photography exhibit is harder than even I had originally thought. It is difficult for people to come forward, and harder still for people in a position of authority or resource to those people to grant me an opportunity or the audience to reach them. Helping me to succeed in this would expose an obvious flaw in our health system and the support resources it so strategically protects.

It is discouraging and more than a little frustrating as April is creeping closer and closer. Without subjects to photograph, there is no exhibit. However, that said, I can’t be beaten down so quickly… or quietly for that matter.  If I must… I have good friends that I will shave down and punch until they cry.. and then I will photograph them. The show must go on… right?

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got Cancer? be a-Muse-d!

tvcogecoThis morning we taped an interview segment for the news on Cogeco!  (It will air on channel 23 for Cogeco cable customers next week.)  I was beyond nervous.  I trembled and perspired like a mad dog in heat.  Once or twice I feared I might be electrocuted by the microphone battery pack they had nestled down into my back forty.  And …I sat alone on a stool with football stadium sized lights all around me revealing every unflattering nook and cranny that I try so hard daily to disguise.   

I put myself out there today, outside my comfort zone – WAY outside – and I showed bravery in myself that I haven’t seen in a long time.  I’m staying consistent to my purpose and true to myself.  Today I reached out to people who are suffering.  Hopefully someone will show their own bravery …and reach back to me. 

~uberscribbler

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Understanding meets Hope: A photography Exhibit

understanding meets hopeImages contribute to how we see ourselves, how we define and relate to the world, and what we perceive as significant or differentI decided to document the emotional cancer journey of strangers in order to capture the naked truth of it and then display it out in the open in an April 2009 exhibit for all to see.  Still images overcome boundaries of language, skin colour, age, religious beliefs, education and socio-economic levels.  It is simply put… people looking at people.

 

The importance of revealing the impact of the emotional cancer is to remove some long associated assumptions with this disease as well as help those that have not been afflicted to no longer fear its mystery and become dilligent in their early detection.   Early detection is our most powerful weapon against this disease.

 

I have enlisted the media’s help in order to help me find willing subjects.  Those who are suffering and even those who are dying.  I would also like to include folks that are getting better and some who have come through it but still carry it’s weight from time to time.  I need these same people afflicted with the disease or those suffering its effects to allow me to capture their deepest and sometimes darkest moments and be willing to share those moments captured with others in order to teach truth and hope.  It will not be an easy task to persuade people to come forward, but hopefully in appealing to them and their families, they will allow me (with my unique perspective and understanding) to include them as part of an incredible journey of hope.

 

I have 3 TV interviews coming up in the next few weeks to aid in my plight for volunteers.  (I hope to stream in some video should it be recorded.)  If you know of anyone who would be willing to participate in this project, please give me a call or send me a note.  Thanks.

 

~uberscribbler

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Cancer chasing cancer (An excerpt from my journals)

In 2006 I was dying.  I was diagnosed with a voracious and debilitating disease that ate away at my mind, body and spirit.  I was diagnosed with cancer.  Upon hearing my diagnosis, I knew myself to be dead within 24 hours.  I had been forever linked to a new race of people, a casualty of a physical war upon my body with a stigma of epic proportions.  In a matter of moments my identity of strength, health and confidence was wiped clean only to be replaced by weakness, pity and fear.  Total strangers would sigh their pity as I passed them and even my friends and family would avert their eyes from mine as my last eyelash came floating down before them.  I was alone… alone with death.

 

A diagnosis of cancer brings together a combination of two unfortunate diseases in one – a double whammy of stress and strain.  Physical cancer eats away at your cells with the sole intention of your eventual death and emotional cancer attacks your mind and your spirit but is as equally dangerous and unforgiving. 

 

Not all cancers are the same, nor are all emotional impacts, but what I have determined to be true is that if left unchecked and ignored the emotional cancer can be your death… even if your body lives on.  Physical cancer affects you individually; emotional cancer is contagious and can infect those around you.  I have found this cancer, the emotional cancer, to be the most debilitating, the one that caused me the most suffering, and the most widely misunderstood and untreated cancer of them all.

 

We’ve been conditioned to fear cancer, and we do so dutifully.  We fear – we fear what cancer does, we fear the mystery of it, we fear loss of life, incapacitation and loss of control.  We avoid the discussion, we encourage those afflicted to think positive and we turn our loved ones into warriors insisting that they are not trying hard enough should treatment be failing.  Cancer causes suffering, not just for some, but for all who are touched by it.  There may be varying degrees but it’s not just some who struggle with fear and self-pity while others show courage and strength, everyone afflicted will have moments of each; its only the moments that you see them that you may pass judgement and decide for them.  The emotional cancer is a culmination of all the dark feelings as well as the courageous and hopeful feelings all rolling around together competing to come out on top.  Who wins one day is a coin toss really, and each day (or hour for that matter) can be different.  These dark feelings are where our fears are; this is the mystery of cancer. It’s important to know that the cancer itself is not the monster, it’s our perceptions of it that makes it our reality.  Recognizing our feelings and accepting that we will be engulfed in varying emotions from time to time is the first step in understanding the truth about cancer.  Emotions are raw and honest and there is no shame in being human and allowing yourself to feel.  When you understand this truth, then you can begin to teach hope. 

 

~uberscribbler

 

 

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Acrylic Ellie is always watching…

Acrylic Ellie

A big hearty welcome to my newest addition to the Fine Art page at Muse Photography!  ‘Ellie” was painted with Acrylics over matte black mdf board canvas and then slightly tweaked for contrast once she was digital.

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Hello world! The uberscribbler has arrived

Stay tuned for some exciting news on upcoming projects!  The uberscribbler blog is brand new and is also associated with Muse Photography.  Please have patience with me while I become familiar with WordPress and get myself organized.

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